David Gardinier

@_thelimitdoesnotexist

Spirit. Los Angeles, CA // Tongva Territory. Co-Founder of @reparationsfund #Reparations & #ReparationsNOW !
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“People who are most magnetically attractive are those whose energy is not split by trying to be a people pleaser, fit in, or satisfy the opinion of others. They simply broadcast a clear transmission of who they are to the universe.” -Maryam Hasnaa (A note to self 💌) 📸: @joynewell . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #selflove #dtla #childofthesun #sun #fashion #model #malemodel #gemini #la #losangeles #photography #city #citylife #gay #queer #gayart #enby #nonbinaryfashion #enbyfashion #charisma #rizz #nonbinary #coastalgrandmother #coastalgrandma #fashionstyle #fashion
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They cannot destroy you with any of the “faults” that you own about yourself. There is so much strength in our vulnerability. And that, my dears, is your power. 💪🏼 📸: @joynewell . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #selflove #dtla #childofthesun #sun #fashion #model #malemodel #gemini #la #losangeles #photography #city #citylife #gay #queer #gayart #enby #nonbinaryfashion #enbyfashion #nonbinary #coastalgrandmother #coastalgrandma #fashionstyle #fashion
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In a society that profits from your self doubt, liking yourself is a rebellious act. And I’m trying. ✨ Last year, working in therapy, a helpful name emerged for a collection of feelings & behaviors that have been with me since childhood: body dysmorphia. This has helped to explain why my days begin with a brief, but often viscous obligatory look in the mirror, only to spend the rest of the day avoiding mirrors (though some with BD look at them obsessively). Why I often hate looking at photos of myself. And why seeing videos of myself can send me on an absolute shame spiral. 🌀 This is not a solicitation for compliments. If anything, I feel like y’all are very kind to me around appearances already, and I’m very grateful for that. 🥹 I’ve learned that the shtick of BD is that the way I see myself is apparently disconnected from reality (and unnecessarily mean!), and no amount of assurance from others can make it go away. I have to try and rewire this part of my brain for myself. And in order to do that, it’s up to me to at least entertain the idea that the nice things people say about me could perhaps be true.🪞 One thing that has been helpful lately is this exercise in forcing myself to post these photos, & shoutout to @joynewell for taking them. Joy is exceedingly patient, & specializes in working with folks seeking to embody more body positivity. It was a really healing experience working with them. Bringing this issue into the light through my posts has been another layer of healing. And today, I’m finally feeling ready to talk about it, so I’ll take that as a win too. It may not be the triumph I long for, but for today, I’m learning to tenderly say, it is (and I am) enough. ❤️‍🩹
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It’s your story babe. Feel free to hit ‘em with a plot twist whenever you want. 🌬️ 📸: @joynewell . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #selflove #dtla #childofthesun #sun #fashion #model #malemodel #gemini #la #losangeles #hot #photography #paintednails #city #citylife #gay #queer #gayart #enby #nonbinaryfashion #enbyfashion #nonbinary #coastalgrandmother #coastalgrandma #fashionstyle #fashion
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Hello, from your friendly neighborhood #Softboy 👋🏼 📸: @joynewell
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Solo trip down my favorite highway #PCH #Latergram 🌊
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#DecadeDump 10 years ago today, I had gotten tired of ppl in my home state of Washington asking me if I was from California, & after years of wondering “what if,” I finally made the move to CA. 🌊 I was definitely in a bad way when I left WA. I wasn’t “out,” was working in an Evangelical org where I would have been fired if I was, and was trying to white knuckle it through another bleak Seattle winter. One day, something in me snapped. The pain of staying the same had outweighed the pain of growing. And even though it was a really dumb move on paper, I left a few months later in search of ☀️, and the opportunity to openly be my authentic self. 🌇 Making the decision to move to a place where I didn’t know anyone, and didn’t have a job or permanent housing lined up was completely out of my comfort zone. I look back at that time now and marvel at how open I was to growth and change, in a way that makes me jealous today. Of course, I was also extremely vulnerable. My little gamble could have gone extremely wrong if it wasn’t for the love & hospitality of many people. I especially want to thank @ms_cristina_maria and her family for taking me in with my two little suitcases and giving me a place to land in San Diego, @revark for never charging me legendary Ca market rate rent while I was getting my feet under me, & @chloe_cavelier for helping me get my first job in LA once I realized LA was my place, & to her family (@l.cavelier ) for bringing me to Calif in the first place. There are too many others to picture or mention here, and today my heart overflows with gratitude for the many people who have brought me so much joy here. ☀️ It’s been far from perfect, but CA has been good to me, and I’m so grateful for my life here. When I decided to finally make that leap, I knew that it might not have worked, but I finally got to the place where I at least just had to KNOW. If you’re in that place with your own “California” (making that move, following that passion, claiming that love) I lovingly say to you that if you can’t get it out of your mind then you gotta take that risk. 🌴 10 years later, I’m so grateful to say, with happy tears in my eyes #CAwasagreatlifechoice 🥹
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In the heart of winter I found there was within me an invincible summer. ☀️ 📸: @joynewell . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #selflove #dtla #childofthesun #sun #fashion #model #malemodel #gemini #la #losangeles #hot #photography #paintednails #city #citylife #gay #queer #gayart
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Sitting in the LA rain and missing the colors and warmth of Yucatán, MX 🥹🇲🇽 #Latergram #mexicoteamo . Exploring the ruins of Chichén Itzá also has me thinking about endings. This place, once the powerful center of the universe for so many people, now sits in ruins—a tourist attraction. How long until my beloved Los Angeles, seemingly invincible now, meets the same fate? (“And here is where they sat for extended periods of time for reasons we can’t discern on what they called ‘The 405.’”) They say that everything ends. And it’s truly humbling.
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#Repost : @Reparationsfund • Dear white friends: Honor the legacy of #MLK today by making reparations (Fundforreparationsnow.org // link in bio)! Please feel to DM me with any questions. Wishing you all a great & purposeful #MLKDay !
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Welcome to the inside of my mind. 🌈
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