alivia

looks i styled when mccayla + i were in new york.

orange is my happy color (: tripod is clearly crooked oh well 😂

have a good day <3

𝕗 𝕒 𝕤 𝕙 𝕚 𝕠 𝕟 Alivia // May ‘24

devil on my right shoulder

🧚🏽♉️🎂🧡 #23 shot by my very lovely friend @barelyhispanic i turn 23 today. being honest i hate the fact that i’m turning twenty three, for no reason other than i have this weird animosity towards odd numbers.. they’re fucking weird.. or maybe i’m just a little quirky.. or maybe because turning twenty three means i’m a year closer to turning twenty five, and that makes me uncomfortable. i can’t decide whether that is because i feel as though i am nowhere close to where i wanted to be, or because in my psych class i learned schizophrenia sometimes does not develop until your frontal lobe does and that fact has filled me with paranoia for years. OR maybe because despite everything, i’ve planted seeds, watered them, tended to them, changed their environment for the better. i’ve seen them blossom, and now they’re growing at a rate i had no idea was possible.. and they’re beautiful. full of life, of color, light, and of love. the rainy days nourish them, they no longer drown. excuse my inner ramblings, odd jokes, and metaphors, i tend to do that when i get vulnerable lol. what i mean to say is each and every day i take the steps to fulfill the promise i made to my 9 year old self.. whenever people asked me what i wanted to be it wasn’t a pilot, an astronaut, it was never a career, but to be the best version of alivia possible. i don’t know what nine year old decides that for themselves but apparently i did + i’ve strived my whole life to make that true. so maybe i’m not where i thought i would be, and i’m still not even the best version of me, but i’ve blossomed into such beautiful being. and as uncomfortable as it makes me to celebrate, and recognize that.. i deserve my flowers.

⛓️mail pt. 2 super grateful to be a part of such a cool collaboration between such talented individuals! designed/styled by: @jaden.rossini photographed by: @joshmaynards assisted by: @therealjimel makeup by: @kiajbeauty

the “chainmail” dress by @jaden.rossini ⛓️ • photographed by @joshmaynards • makeup by @kiajbeauty • assisted by @therealjimel

skin update!

i’m turning 23 soon. i quit my job at nike, was unemployed, took a job out of passion and not for the money, i quit that job because lol i needed money, i picked up a camera, started making videos, downloaded serato, bought a skateboard, i went to new york for fashion week.. alone, first solo trip, but i didn’t walk, i was in a music video, i went to new york for fashion week again and i walked for five different designers, i went to my first festival, fainted at the lucki concert, watched my friends put together their first fashion show, started styling, i started using my voice, taking up space in rooms, allowed myself to get creative, i got a tattoo, dyed my hair myself, cut my hair myself, braided my hair myself, bought 2 cars, 8 concerts, lost friends, gained friends, set boundaries, fell in love, got my feelings hurt, read a lot of books, wrote a lot in my lil diary, went to the dominican republic, stayed on a farm, built my confidence, recognized my self worth, learned to love myself. that was the goal, all ever i wanted. i didn’t realize how much i had done until now, and i’m probably forgetting a lot, and some things are a lil too personal, but you get the point. it all seems little in the grand scheme of things.. but if you knew that girl, the 21 year old in the first clip.. shit, you would be proud. i know i am. xoxo alivia

you better go touch some grass!