Creating with friends is always the moments I cherish most. @lilireinhart and I spent the day dressing up, trying on new looks, becoming different characters and capturing it all.
Creativity blossoms
when captured through the lens of
love.
Creativity blossoms
when captured through the lens of
pain.
Tell me, dear soul, is there truly a difference?!
I would like to finally introduce you to Monochrome - a fragrance developed with NOYZ. Just over two years ago I made a vow with myself to change my life. I looked death in the eyes and pleaded, no, you won’t take me this way and I survived. From a young working class artist with nothing but a wild dream to one day be part of a community where I am understood, from a homeless young adult sleeping at bus stops, to a confused, lonely and lost soul who found comfort and companionship at the bottom of many bottles and in the after taste of many drugs. I survived. I won’t sit here and say to you that I know why I survived my choices. Sometimes I do think that it would have been easier to have not. But I did. Moments like this make me grateful because I am able to do the one thing that truly does make me happy, to give back, with authenticity. My heart fills with bliss to share this with you because also just over two years ago, I started to bring this true friend of mine to life. Monochrome invites you to explore childhood nostalgia, adolescent rebellion, the tip-toeing of dark and lightness you dance between as you wander through life a little older and then it leaves a coffee stained kiss on your senses to accept and identify who you are now and who you can be in your future. Monochrome is not just my journey, but all of ours. I wanted to create something that gives you an embrace and a space to connect with yourself, in your entirety. Monochrome is a fragrance for you. I was never one to relate to the fantasy of perfection or heterosexual love or the many other fantasies exhibited in other fragrance journeys. And there is nothing at all wrong with that. But I felt there needed to be a space for others who may also feel like me. A fragrance with no fantasy. Just honesty. Raw feelings, raw emotion, happy, sad, content. Human. I think it is important we hold on to the fact that to be beautiful means you can also be broken. You can find Monochrome as of today exclusively at @harrods or online at @noyz_official worldwide. This is for all of us that are surviving our own minds. You can find the link in my bio to purchase yours. #noyzpartner#noyzfragrance
I guess I always tend to put myself through an emotional journey. It starts off with intrigue and fascination, then i steer it into a sort of love, one i hope that encapsulates my entire soul for the duration of the creativity, especially the beginning, so i can feel all the heightened emotions and see nothing else around me but my muse. Then it steers into the pain and the reality of the loss, the reality of the fantasy crashing to pieces. But that’s where creativity burns for me, maybe stronger sometimes than the beginning. Inevitably that journey comes to its end but the art through it is born and then lives for the people, whomever to consume. And for me, it leaves me and no longer needs me and in a way i abandon it. And that’s the end of the story for that moment. And it hurts. And then i do it all again. I guess that’s my process really. In a way i fall in love every single time i create and i also fall out of it every time i create. A platonic love story. Never a sexual or perverse one. One of true connection and emotion. A dance of the souls for just a moment, until it’s gone. But immortalised forever outside of my consciousness, from which it was born.
My art is my mirror. It helps me understand everything spiralling inside of my mind clearly. I feel more connected to myself when i create from my truth. However with truth can come discomfort. Yet, this is what life is truly like for many of us. And i think in a time where everything feels so plastic and inauthentic and most definitely not what i can relate too. I feel it’s my artistic right to express my true feelings and thoughts, the only way i know how. Welcome to my mind and my struggles. This is all part of me. Part of my experiences. And i am no longer ashamed. I hope through my art you can find parts of yourself and weaken the shame too. With love and respect always, DB. A 🖤 for free-art…!
700 days sober. It feels so great to say that. Almost two years. It has its ups and it has its downs. As life presents for all of us. I am grateful today to be alive. I’ve had a great time recently with true friends, falling deep in love and just living as my true self, being accepted and laughing until my belly hurts. You do not have to live in the dark to create art.
We are living in an era of artists with a chokehold around their throats. Maybe this era has always existed and it has taken artists before us to lose it all in their physical existence until eventually they become understood once death opens the eyes of the viewers fully. Don’t say this, don’t create that, you’ll be misunderstood. You’ll lose money. You’ll fail within society. You’ll burn at the stake for all to consume. Is that the overall message we want to believe in? Should we not be free to express and create what we feel, what we believe to be true? Isn’t that the most important message of all… truth?! No creativity should ever be entered with fear yet fear suffocates me. I wish for humanity to find peace, critical thinking, artistic expression which whatever you are told, truly does live within us all. You are valuable and so is your story. Tell it. Don’t fear it. As uncomfortable and isolating it may feel, push through the fear and create whatever feels true to you. 657 days sober from alcohol, drugs and my own oppression. Today I feel FREE!
Closeness is not confined to romance. I’ve found affection to be a vessel for something much stronger. My darling girls, I think I fit into the world now. My own private bubble anyway. My legs were used to walking around whilst my head was staring at the ground. My point of view was always the bottom. You both came into my life and you opened me up to start feeling colour. I started to look up. I noticed the sky. Oh my gosh, I can breathe. You’ve shown me your worlds and you’ve let me show you mine. Spinning and spinning together in circles whilst the world around us blurs into a summer breeze. Golden hair against fiery red hair, four blue eyes you could get lost in. I feel down. You both notice. You lift me up. I’m flying high again. What was life like without you? It doesn’t really matter. You’re here now. Love is powerful. I cuddle you and I feel safe. I create with you and feel safer. I see you seeing me. Art is to share, but this experience is ours and it is more powerful and magical than any kind of romance because it’s a friendship, a dance of souls. And the most beautiful part of it all is that, well, it’s a dance that will continue forever.
Started 2024 beside my darling @sadiesink_ laughing, reading my first book, listening to music whilst sharing our feelings and emotions. Endless games of chess, hiding in the house from the cold, and boundlessly creating. Intertwined and free together. PS - you suck at chess. 😈
