While I revel in my proud feeling of how cool I thought my eyeliner looked cause I could match it to my hair. I also have been realising how profoundly grateful I am to have the friends and family that have been just the most stunning support network as I try to navigate regaining my life again without consistently fitting my time (outside of work) into someone else's* schedule.
My avoidance tactics have been in overdrive for quite sometime now, in many ways. Yet mainly because if you know me, I am a talker. I wasn't ready to splurge about my troubles and worries. I wasn't ready to talk and admit to others closest to me, the things I couldnt really admit to myself. So I stuck to the surface level problems and carried on.
Though I must say, after being repeatedly ghosted by said person*, it sure does make you want to talk. Even more so I'd say.
So here's a thanks to the past week...
To Kira (
@kirascigz ) - you know that I cannot put into words how much I appreciate and adore the support you have given me these past few months alone. You are one of a kind, an absolutely amazing human who I genuinely am so excited to see you continue to grow gurl. From our 6am rants about life's woes and those who have wronged us, to us parting work ways in an emotional nod to how far we have both come in the time we've known eachother.
To Charlotte (
@charlottedianajuliamclean )
I hope you ALREADY know how much you mean to me and how much I bloody well love you. I shan't get soppy(saving it for another time...). You are the rock, the longest standing best friend, and the bestest of best friends I could ask for. No matter what, you're always there.
To Julia and Will. (
@juliaratcliffe451
&
@conversion_corner_gaming )
From the text of "I'm not doing so hot" you crazy cats didn't just spend almost 3 hours on the phone with me setting me straight, you opened yourselves up to dealing with my dumbass for like 4 days. Because, you were right, I did need to get away. Spending time with you both was a blessing, and I am so goddamm grateful you invited me, but not more grateful than I am to have you in my life. I just love you both so much, just, thank you.
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FYI - I'm okay.
