Year 2 of full time freelance what a goddamn ride!
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Turns out the terrible 2s also apply to starting a business - it’s been a year full of reflection, building and breaking walls, unending emotional whiplash, working in exceptionally challenging circumstances, getting kicked down even further after already being pulp on the pavement, deep grief from losses of every kind, and my most beloved Murphy girl crossing the rainbow bridge as the cherry on top.
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However I can also truly say that the majority of the best work I have ever done - personally and professionally - has come from this past year. I landed a dream album cover (thank you
@_fieldmedic - your trust has changed me fundamentally), shooting for outlets I once saw as unachievable (thank you
@altpress for believing in me!!!!!), growing friendships with people I never imagined would even know my name, lessening my fear of saying yes AND my fear of saying no, finding my footing a little bit more with each gig and tour, and putting my pride down enough to accept help and ask questions (sometimes by necessary force).
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I genuinely do not know what the future of this career looks like for me - what opportunities might present themselves or even how long it’ll last. But thank you to each person who has propelled me and kept believing in me through the muck of it all this year.
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As one of my favorite lyrics from The Smiths says- “it takes strength to be gentle and kind”. May that, and continued curiosity, be what I bring to year 3 🖤
