Marks of black tracing the route of a dried tear, my kohl forms clouds of black around my brown eyes. I just want to curl into a ball, knees close to my chest and sleep. Hug my teddy hard and weep. Weep in his ears all you did and didn't do. Home alone crying is an option, but doesn't that make me week? Make me even more guilty of the crime I cry repentence tonight. The fact, that you forgot and I couldn't. That I could so easily become non-existant for you.The soul could't capture, could not touch deep enough. the brain couldn't captivate, the heart couldn't bind, god, it could just weep and plead.
But no more, I won't, not anymore. Smudged kajal redone to winged eyeliner. I turn up the volume, Back to back Naruto, buzzfeed, Friends, big bang theory. It shall take time dear, but I am on the right road ahead. It shall take more than just distance, maybe these noisy nights of youTube and silent pensive, thinking 3AMs are the first step of recovery.
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